I want to write and I want to paint,
but I just can't, because something is blocking my inspiration.

When I sit down to write my head goes blank.
And when I sit down to paint it's even worse! I just paint something... awful! I know I did those paintings before too, just to get feelings out of my system. But back then it was with style and it was beautiful, now it's just plain scary and confusing. I can see that my art has been improved, but... I don't want to paint the kinds of things I paint now.

I have had nightmares every night for a week now and I often have a headache when I go to bed and I hate it. I just want to be able to sleep again, without aches and nightmares.

I just want my inspiration to come back!

I want to paint again! Now I just feel miserable because I can't express my feelings! They're just building up inside and waiting for me to put them on canvas, but...
No, I just can't. >.<